SAFETY ANYONE?;
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Fuck .
Hellos all (: !
i looking for my shattered pieces .
hahas .
cause my heart yesterday SHATTERED into a MILLION pieces .
so yeahs , i have no colours in my fucking life .
My life is just black & white . even my clothes are black & white or dark coloured .
so dark .
so emo (:
hahas .
i`m a typical EMO .
or a Pathetic EMO waiting for people to loveeeeeeee ~
apparently no one wants to loveeeeeeee me .
hahas .
so i`m so kelian .
i dun want you all tong qing wo .
cause i dun like th word tong qing it sounds so KNS .
and i am having FUCKING hard time toohs .
lols .
so lame uhs me .
few days ago .
i was still a lively girl (:
but now i`m just a FUCKING emo .
lols .
what a big change for these few days ? (x .
i just start being emo yesterday de ._. lmaos .
i think i wun be able to see you guys again tomorrow if i success . !
but i dunno what things to use to kill myself !
arrghs !
maybes . tonight i can`t sleep le bahs .
i think i better go out tonight .
i mean .
while my parents are asleep .
i may go out of th house and enjoy th night breeze ? (: (~)
not jump off th building ._.
cause my rib cage might break into a million pieces like my heart .
so i think th clear way is to relax & think first (:
i dun think hanging is good .
drowning also not good .
cutting not good .
slashing is now th top thought .
jumping off th bloody fucking building might break my ribcage .
if i set a fire then th whole building might suffer .
so i better think of a better way (:
if you have a better idea ~ please tag me ! tell me okays ?
i despo to die le .
my days are short !~!
it`s 20 november now !
th holis end in jan 2 .
like so fast .
so better think of a good way and end this fucking life .
ahhhhs .
fuck fuck fuck .
all i say is fuck .
all i say are vulgars .
all i do is EMO .
all i want is YOU .
why can`t i get what i want ?
whatever i do in front of you are fakes .
FAKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES .
th real me is EMO-ing when you talk about HER but not me .
i just pretend to be happy for you .
well i am .
i am happy if you get someone you love // like (:
1 heart . million pieces .
tht`s my state .
1 heart but shattered into a million pieces .
i currently haven found any shattered pieces .
cause they have been scattered all over th place .
& i dunno where it is .
i trying hard to find .
but i just cannot stand tht you are just talking about HER , HER & only HER
why can`t i be in your thought ?
why can`t i get you attention ?
cause i not good enough for you ?
YOUR BUSINESS .
So STFU & stop saying you care about me .
you fucking big fag !
few days ago .
you said you cared about me .
i asked you so much .
you reply th way i want .
but now .
you just talk about her ?
i dun understand why .
were you just acting afew days ago ?
if you are i just have to say .
YOU SUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK ~!
you really suck for only talking about her blinded by love isn`t what i always do .
well maybe yes .
or whatever .
or not alot times .
aiyahs .
whatever i`m crapping about just STFU !
if i cry my eyeballs out i`m not fixing my eyes .
i`ll let it be .
maybe being blind is better ?
i dun have to see all these cruel things you send to me .
i think i better go before i tear my blog down baibai all .
BAIBAI ! O: !