hellos all (: ! hahas . today so sian uhs . wake up talk to Mr Moon le (: now talking to him . yesterday Mr Baka SMS me , i thought he not angry with me le then so happy , nan li zhi dao is Mr Star ask him come get blog URL from me de . then i was like WTF how can you help him ?._. my blog all th things walaos hpw can let hi, read de ? then it`s like WAHPIANGs . i hate my life , i wish i could end it now ._. cause i have no idea how much tear i drop in a night because i want HYM backs . but toohs bad(: all HE talk about is tht girl . I guess th way i love you wasnt enough to get your attention . whatever i do is just not as good as her . maybe i really just suck so much i dun deserve anyone . people who follows me just have a bad life . a veh veh veh veh veh veh veh veh veh veh veh veh veh veh , gam pua , bad de life . so to all out there . if you wanna stop being friends with me or what just say luhs . i dun mind (: . i also cannot last long anyways . i wanna die soon le ! (: so happy . but i dunno how to die . i dun care about th whatsoever not tragic way le . if i could die now . i want to die now (: . if you think i`m just being emo like other people say want die but bo die . sorrys hor , i really despo to die cans ? but i wish i can see christmas before i die (: cause tht day is so nice . people gather tgt to celebrate (: i wanna laugh & go . i dun wanna frown and go . smile & laughters are what i always have (: but i guess life change 3 years ago after i met you . from a happy girl . to a girl who drop tears before she sleeps . i cry myself to sleep every night . just because i think of you everytime . if only i die in my mother`s womb . you can say tht i`m selfish . cause all i think about is dying . i did spare a thought for my family toohs . they wanted to save moneh so much . and funeral needs moneh . maybe running away might help ? and i can die so no one knows . i save moneh for my funeral . and i can die in a no one place . less burden for my parents . so they can save more moneh for my brother`s education bahs . he more important than me (: he`s still young and have alot time ahead . i`m 7 years older than him . and i cant turn back . he`s 7 next year if he work hard he have a bright future (: as for me . i`m sec 2 already . my future is still so blur . i dun even have any idea what i wanna be when i grow up . my di have a veh bright future . yesterday he toldme he wanna be a cop(: i was like . yes you can be one if you study hard . but toohs bad . my di is a playful kid . can`t help it . yes , i admit tht i did bully my di before . but when he was young all he did was bite me . pull my hair . and many more . i dun mind tht . but all i want is more of my father`s love . i dun even feel my father`s love anymore he used to say tht he want to send me to th girl`s home . yeahs i know it sucks . but so what ? if he just wants to push me aside . TQVM . i used to be a happy girl living in a wonderland . with happiness surrounded all around me . but after my di was born . happiness stop coming to me . they went to my di instead . then 3 years ago . i met HIM so silly of me thinking tht life is full of colours again . hahas . thinking back makes me wanna laugh but so sad i`m no laughing but instead i`m crying my eyeballs out . no matter what i do now . it`s toohs late . i shouldnt be so selfish . i must give my di th better education ! (: so much for me being gave birth to (: hahas . i hate me ! (: th quiz say what i will do before i die ? i said i will scream iloveyous to him . i acctually really want to ._. but guess i dun have th chance ! (: hahas . X:! maybe type on th blog ? if he pass by lemme HIM see ? i`m so silly ! (: so i think i type now ? hahas XD .
ILOVEHYM , ILOVEHYM , ILOVEHYM , ILOVEHYM , ILOVEHYM , ILOVEHYM , ILOVEHYM , ILOVEHYM , ILOVEHYM , ILOVEHYM , ILOVEHYM , ILOVEHYM , ILOVEHYM , ILOVEHYM , ILOVEHYM , ILOVEHYM , ILOVEHYM , ILOVEHYM , ILOVEHYM , ILOVEHYM , ILOVEHYM , ILOVEHYM , ILOVEHYM , ILOVEHYM , ILOVEHYM , ILOVEHYM , ILOVEHYM , ILOVEHYM , ILOVEHYM , ILOVEHYM . hopefully he passes by . lmaos . he he dunno it`s HIM it`s better (: hahas .
nothing`s gonna change th fact tht i love you . if you know it`s you , STFU (: caue if you want to talk about her . i know . all you talk about is her (: so what she should do is also pull me there and let her talk about you (: let her crap about how much she loves you . i dun care if she wantes to stead you or what . NOTHING is gonna change th fact tht ILOVEYOU .